Thursday, December 04, 2008
i've been bitten...
in more ways than one. :)
posted so many entries at one go. just suddenly felt like blogging. perhaps i might feel melancholic enough to start writing poetry again.
nov/dec have always been a nostalgic time for me. many things happen for me during this period every year - the best kind and the worst. perhaps it is because i have nothing much to do, and therefore more than enough time to think. my mind is the worst enemy i have. i am too paranoid, too imaginative. sometimes i make myself expect something, then get disappointed greatly if it does not materialise. no expectation = no disappointment. but what is life without a little hope?
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*为了让你高兴嘛 :) - 27 nov '08
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i grow attached to people very quickly, sometimes too quickly for my own good. and i am always very paranoid, wondering if they have O.D.ed on me yet. i like surrounding myself with people that i love. whenever people ask, is it better to love someone or to be loved, i always choose the former. because i do not believe that many people love me. i am not very loveable and i cannot believe that people find me love-worthy.
i can love many people at the same time. when i love, i love hard. and when i love, i tell them i love them. that is why i have gotten burnt many times, why i have died many times. but i am like a child that never learns. when i get hurt, i go out and do the same thing again. and get hurt. again. whenever someone i love leaves me, part of my heart dies.
please don't leave me.
posted so many entries at one go. just suddenly felt like blogging. perhaps i might feel melancholic enough to start writing poetry again.
nov/dec have always been a nostalgic time for me. many things happen for me during this period every year - the best kind and the worst. perhaps it is because i have nothing much to do, and therefore more than enough time to think. my mind is the worst enemy i have. i am too paranoid, too imaginative. sometimes i make myself expect something, then get disappointed greatly if it does not materialise. no expectation = no disappointment. but what is life without a little hope?
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*为了让你高兴嘛 :) - 27 nov '08
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i grow attached to people very quickly, sometimes too quickly for my own good. and i am always very paranoid, wondering if they have O.D.ed on me yet. i like surrounding myself with people that i love. whenever people ask, is it better to love someone or to be loved, i always choose the former. because i do not believe that many people love me. i am not very loveable and i cannot believe that people find me love-worthy.
i can love many people at the same time. when i love, i love hard. and when i love, i tell them i love them. that is why i have gotten burnt many times, why i have died many times. but i am like a child that never learns. when i get hurt, i go out and do the same thing again. and get hurt. again. whenever someone i love leaves me, part of my heart dies.
please don't leave me.
